Clarity
Originally written April 2011.
Clarity
How much have I been forgiven, Lord?
Indeed I cannot say
Not because I’m awed by the depth of grace
But because I live not reflectively
I have not a story of fore and aft
A picture of the then and now
But only that I belong to You
And sometime redeemed somehow
A woman loved a lot did serve
She knew her debt of sin
I served a lot indeed myself
But from a love more thin
And yet I’ve learned to love much more
But hit my limitation
The ugliness of my sin, I find
Beyond my observation
So without this clarity
I yet indeed bow my knee
Serve because of what I see
Instead of from humility
In the Father’s economy
It’s broken vessels that He needs
But in the mirror I’ve yet to see
That cracks are rife within me
Perhaps it is a boy’s mistake
The mirror held has a break
And thus I find the cracks I see
To be in it and not in me
This looking glass cast aside
A new one to replace
So that when I gaze upon
I’ll finally see my face
Not dimly but with clarity
And finally know the cracks therein
And understand the truth of me
The depth of my own sin
And then
love
repent
forgive
and love
Will bind my heart to Him
And then
The service that I long to give
Can finally be sincere
Born not through eager zealotry
But instead on streams of tears
Weeping for the grace received.
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